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It’s overcast, but the flowers were still shining brightly. Could that be a metaphor for my current state? Most likely. . I was asked recently why, if the relationship was so bad, was I still sad about my marriage ending. The thing is, even if you know, in the end someone is right for you, it’s still the death of dreams, hopes, a future that was envisioned but didn’t happen. While the death of dreams wasn’t a reason to stay, it does still hurt. . Grief is a funny thing though, at first there was just relief, but the last few months have been a depression unlike anything I’ve experienced since I was raped. The fact that May is the anniversary of when we met, when we went on our first date, and when we got in gaged, seems to have compounded in everything coming to a head in the last few days. Never underestimate the power of a fantastic therapist to help you process things. I do feel like things have turned a page, and I am hopeful for what the future brings. . Also, never underestimate the power of being vulnerable. Brene Brown is having her moment in the spotlight right now for a good reason. Check out her documentary on Netflix. It’s only been by opening up to my friends, and to you dear Insta friends, that I have been able to process and connect a lot of the dots. Here’s to the next chapter, may it bring many flowers and a few clouds to keep things in perspective. . #garden #flowers #avocadoisgonnalive! #gerberadaisy #bougainvillea #rose #calandrinia #flamingo #canna #grief #vulnerability #divorce